Okay, so I'm totally into Avatar: TLA now. I seem to have a habit of jumping into series after their popularity has waned. Finally got a channel that the eps were being shown on, and I the series. If anyone knows of any really good fanfics, pleasepleaseplease send them my way. I'm dying to read some good ones. Scouring fanfiction.net for good, well-written Zutara (or any ship, for that matter) is mind-numbing, exhausting, and for the most part, disappointing.

Well, I'm here for now. I can't say that I'll be putting stuff up on a regular basis, or even semi-regular, because I've been very un-creative of late. Work sucks, divorce sucks, dealing with deadbeats sucks, and government sucks.

Warning: Rant ahead. Read at your own risk. And know that I don't expect anyone to really read it, I just need to get it off my chest.

Work sucks because my boss is a jerk and a whiner most of the time anymore. And she has the nerve to call me a "dark cloud". She needs to take a long look in the mirror before she does again. Constantly talking about her terrible childhood (which, if half of it is really true, actually was bad, but I don't trust hardly anyone anymore to tell the truth), her health problems and personal issues that I really don't want to hear about. I'm not a shrink, honey! I have plenty of my own problems to deal with, I don't need or want to deal with yours, too.

Divorce sucks. It just does. But since I found out the moron was cheating on me, with a real gem of a person to boot (end sarcasm), it doesn't suck quite as bad as the first time around. Idiot tells me to quit my job and stay home with the kids, he'll pay the bills (makes good money, you know, being a used truck salesman *snort*). 'Course, at the time he was making decent money, so, like a moron, I quit my job and was counting on him to support us. Aargh! I just want to wring his neck! Not only did he not support his family, but I haven't seen or heard from him since... gosh, March, maybe? No idea where he is or even if he's still around here, and I really don't care except...

Dealing with deadbeats sucks. Both of my girls' "fathers" have not been helping to support their daughters. I don't know where either of them are, and neither have been paying child support with any semblance of regularity. Neither have seen their daughter in many months, which actually is not a bad thing, upon reflection. They are sparkling examples of humanity. (end more sarcasm) The only real regrets in my life are the relationships I had with these assholes (pardon my language, but I'm angry). I love my girls, but their "fathers" can go take a dive into the deepest circle of hell.

Government sucks because... well, I'm not sure if anyone wants to hear it, but it's my journal and so far we still have this little thing called "Freedom of Speech", so I'm gonna go on anyway. I think the President is making very wrong choices. I count myself as a proud Conservative (not necessarily Republican), and his policies and ideas go completely against the grain, not to mention everything this country was founded on. Smaller government is better government. Honestly, do you want someone you don't know and who doesn't know you and only sees you as a number on a page of thousands of numbers, telling you how to live your life? I don't. And I STILL WANT TO SEE THE BIRTH CERTIICATE, MR. PRESIDENT!! WHEN YOUR PARTY HAD QUESTIONS ABOUT JOHN MCCAIN'S PLACE OF BIRTH, HE PRODUCED THE PROPER DOCUMENTATION. LAST I KNEW, A BIRTH CERTIFICATE WAS A MATTER OF PUBLIC RECORD. THE ONLY REASON TO HIDE IT IS IF YOU AREN'T A NATURAL-BORN CITIZEN OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. I think this nationalised health care thing that the Democraps are trying to ramrod through is one of the worst things that could happen to the system. If healthcare goes to a single-payer system, bureaucrats are going to be looking at your medical history, your family's medical histories, and they're going to say, "Nope, we can't authorize this, because everyone on this side of his family has developed this condition and besides, he's too old, so we're gonna put him on this instead, which only costs us a fraction of the cost of this other thing the doctor wants to do, but it'll only be a matter of time and we won't have to worry about him anymore anyway." I really don't want my medical records to be a matter of public record, and I definitely don't want some Federal whino telling me that I can't get a treatment to make me better because one of my ancestors had, I don't know... cirrhosis of the liver or some crap like that.

I've never been very politcally oriented before, but some of this crap they're trying to put through just pisses me off. I'm not going to apologise for my views, just like I don't expect anyone else to apologise for something they believe in. I do not believe in abortion, and I do not believe that a marriage should be defined in any way other than that of the union of one man and one woman. I'm not going to think bad of you if you're gay or lesbian or bi or anything like that, because I love my brother and he's gay. But it's not me. I would like to avoid flames, but if you're so inclined, you're going to flame me anyway, whether I want it or not.

Just getting a few things off my chest. Thank you for your patience.

Okay. So, dude! I have been very bad about checking in here. My scanner is not in working order right now, so I have nothing to show for my inactivity, tho I've been drawing and writing a bit. Getting majorly back into the Naruto fandom for some inexplicable reason, which means I'm again adding to my already-too-long list of original characters. I think I'm up to 253 now, or at least close to that. Now I just need to get some character portraits out so I know what these people look like...

Hmm, I'm rambling. Tho I suppose I didn't really have anything specific to write about to begin with. Just letting anyone who cares know that I've returned, for a while at least.

See ya!

Wow. My last journal was way back in February...

Not sure how I like the new dA version yet. Haven't spent any decent amount of time on here recently. I have a job now and a new car instead of my old SUV. My baby is 9 months old now and gets into everything. She's starting to say small words and she has two teeth and she's just sooo cute! My older daughter has two loose teeth and will be starting kindergarten this fall. Looks like life is slowly getting back on track.

No clue when I'll be able to post anything new-- my desktop resets itself at random times and I can't get anything done on it, and my laptop has a virus or something so I can't get on the 'net now on it. I have been drawing a bit... mostly characters from the two stories I've been working on for the past few years. I'm branching out into dragon-type beings now instead of strictly human-type, which is a big step for me. Now to work on my dragon anatomy...

Current Mood: tired
Reading: Love Comes Softly by Janette Oke
Listening to: nothing
Watching: nothing
Eating: Triple chocolate molten fudge cake
Thinking: I should really go to bed...

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Okay, massive updates and rant ahead. As you all know, my second daughter was born Oct. 17, 2007. My husband left me about six days before that. There for a long while, I believed we would get back together, but it turns out that he was just stringing me along. While I still love him, I deserve much better than that, so I'm going to file for divorce. I'm tired of being treated as if I don't exist. He doesn't call me, he doesn't pick up his phone when I call him, and he doesn't return my calls. I have no way to contact him other than his phone, since he won't tell me where he's living or working. He's not giving me much, if any, money, and I don't have a job as of this time. I'm looking, but there's not much hiring in this small town, and I don't have the money to drive to a larger one in my gas-guzzling SUV. Which I need to sell, badly, so I can get something smaller and more fuel-efficient.

So I have no money. And I have many bills which I have to pay. And I'm pissed that my husband is a deadbeat, because he wasn't like this before he came back from boot camp. Or if he was, I wasn't aware of it.

Oh, yeah. Speaking of boot camp, I've discovered another lovely</sarcasm> tidbit about him... He went AWOL. So I'm really pissed about that, because in my opinion, you just don't do that. If you make a commitment, you keep to it. That's it, no highway option.

So my soon-to-be-ex-husband is a coward and a deserter. And I'm tired of all the lies he's told me. Because he's told one hell of a lot of them. It's to the point that I can't believe anything he says because he's contradicted himself so many times already and flat out lied to me too many times to even try to keep track of. I'm sick of it and I'm sick of him, so I think even if we were together, I'd kick him out anyway. I have an appointment with my lawyer on Friday, so I'm going to get the ball rolling. Not sure how I'm gonna pay for it yet, but I'm hoping to stick Mike with all my legal fees, because he's sure as hell not giving me enough money to live on. I was an idiot, I see that now, and I'm taking steps to correct the situation.

Okay, so I think I'm done ranting for now. If you've read this far, you have my undying appreciation.

My baby is doing very well. She's just turned four months, and already she's starting to roll over. She still refuses to take a bottle, though, an fact that has me nearly tearing out my hair in frustration on occasion. But for a day every so often when she won't sleep for any time longer than 30 minutes, she's a perfect little baby. She's so happy most of the time, and her laughs and giggles and smiles are the highlight of my day. My older daughter, Dana, is so good with her. Jansen just lights up when she sees her sissy. It's so cute! She certainly loves her big sister.

Well, it's getting pretty late for me. I can't believe I used to stay up this late all the time. I get really tired around 9:30 nowadays. Ah, well.

Nighters, all.

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Massive thanks to all you wonderful people who comment on and fave my art and/or decide to devwatch me. I cannot express in words how much I appreciate it. I no longer have the time the reply to every person who faves or comments on my work, but I will try to thank each new watcher.

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